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What You're Worth

by Library Siesta

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1.
Silence 03:37
Your front door is as innocuous as any other You put your key in to unlock it and you wonder Would it really be so bad If next time you come out you were in a body bag No one ever taught you how to pray But oh, how you tried When the monster moved in with you that day You keep it all locked up so well Not even the nosiest neighbours can tell Muffle your screams with a fresh coat of paint And they'll never make any noise complaints You're not sure if memory serves you right No, you can't trust it Because your head’s been knocked around too many times I know your tears are falling like bodies from a burning building But if you want to stay alive you've gotta keep those bodies quiet Keep those bodies quiet Make sure they fall in total silence Keep those bodies quiet Make sure they fall in silence
2.
Bourbon cokes and sweaty bongs Smells like boys who did me wrong Just a means to self-harm A war as pointless as Vietnam Cut down trees and count the rings Count my scars, it's the same thing Body's decayed, spirit's regressed to a youth where I'm not depressed Second teenagehood Little crushes on girls and guys Getting home at sunrise Still don't know where I belong Masturbate all day long Second teenagehood I don't look back
3.
Well, aren't you looking pretty in your second-hand clothes All dressed up in stories that you'll never know Isn't it a pity how you'll never be mine I get that you love her but can't you love me at the same time? I wouldn't mind My heart is a fortified city, but you still found your way in And I don't know if I can put the people through this again Because they're still broken Oh yeah they're sore from battles lost years before It's alright I wouldn't mind Before you cut me loose Hold me tight like a noose Before you cut me loose Hold me tight I won't make a move but you can if you want to It's alright I wouldn't mind
4.
We fucked on the bare bathtub floor I was 16 and bored and as I bled he lit a cigarette In a suburban backyard They gave me bourbon after bourbon til I didn’t know which way was up Then the boy I thought I loved sold me to his friend for a $10 pack of blues From that night on something was missing Something important that I lacked The only way to get it was to keep going back And one by one they each had their turn I always cried but I never said no because I’d given up on life a long time ago Kevin said he’d get me a gun but I never had enough cash Because the boy I thought I loved kept stealing it to buy cigarette packs And now I think about the tar in his lungs I think about the cells mutating And I think about his face turning blue and how everything turns out as it’s supposed to as it’s supposed to Yeah everything turns out exactly as it’s supposed to
5.
6.
They say her eyes are a desert Wandering, aimless But when they fall on you she lights up just like Vegas Although you've promised your heart to another All she wants to be is your insignificant other Well, you've dug yourself into this tunnel vision All you see is her with 20/20 precision Is this fate, or an escape? Is this fate? Is she your fate? Is there space in your bed for a second lover? Because all she wants to be is your insignificant other They say her eyes are a desert Wandering, aimless
7.
Rebecca lived in the house next to mine I think about her every time I get locked out of my bank account "What's the street name of your first house?" But I don't wanna look back Because that cul-de-sac has secrets I just can't hack We're all cans of beans Past expiry, rotten and dusty Forgotten in a pantry If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully Because I'm no good Her daddy was never there and her mum would pull her by the hair Rebecca never knew what she did Daily beatings for being a kid “Humans are living longer thanks to modern medicine” How come you say it like it's a good thing? We're all cans of beans Past expiry, rotten and dusty Forgotten in a pantry If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully Because I'm no good for you One time she got in trouble when it should have been me Too scared to fess up I watched her get beaten up But it was my fault it was my fault it was my fault We're all cans of beans past expiry If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully Because I'm no good for you No, I'm no good for you
8.
ENFP 02:58
All of my actions have the opposite effect of my intent Everything I have ever said it’s never quite been what I’ve meant Doctor, can you do surgery on my personality? I’m sick of being a pushover ENFP All messed up and nowhere to go Reality is only a nightmare Fall asleep all the time to let my mind take me elsewhere Doctor, can you do surgery on my personality? I’m sick of being a pushover ENFP All messed up and nowhere to go When I die my organs will be put in new bodies I hope the people find them useful more than they were for me Doctor, can a heart still be transplanted if it was always taken for granted? All messed up and nowhere to go
9.
Ashley was the only one I told Secrets too big for my hands to hold about a boy who made me want to die She was the one thing keeping me alive He put me down, said girls can’t shred Only thing they’re good for is giving head I left that part of town long ago But she stayed Now he’s her Romeo Does he still reek of Winnie Blues? Does he hit on your friends in front of you? Does he even know what you’re worth? Do you even know what you’re worth? Some teenage boys don’t know how to love Dumb teenage boys don’t know how to fuck Pixelated girls never say no Did you shrink, Ashley or did he grow? I kept it all inside when he asked me “Why do you always cry afterwards?” I kept it all inside when they asked me “Why do you always cry afterwards?”
10.
Spark 03:08
You call me darling I call you creep Women are not property so I’m not yours to keep I’ve got a box of matches and you’ve got a nerve, boy Watch me smile while I destroy All that you love It all starts with a spark Yeah, I’d had one too many No, that didn’t give you any right to just do whatever you like And now I’m too tired to fight Yeah, I took it lying down So I’ll give it lying down, cunt Watch me burn All that you love It all starts with a spark I know what I’m worth but I’m tired of this earth There’s too many guys like you Time to say goodbye to All that you love It all starts with a spark
11.
And she lived happily ever after Checked the letterbox everyday Bracing herself for a no-grounds eviction notice Practised the lotus position and counted her breaths Did all the psychologist said Handed over her credit card and counted her debts And she lived happily ever after Never talked to strangers Kept right away from danger Looked over her shoulder There was no one behind her Well, there was no one in front either Nobody by her side No one was ever by her side And she lived happily ever after And she lived happily ever after And she lived Happily Happily Happily Happily…

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released August 19, 2022

Content note: Although a lot of these songs are upbeat, they often contain dark and heavy lyrical content. This includes stories about mental illness and abusive relationships. If this brings up anything for you, please reach out to a safe person or call Lifeline on 13 11 14.

Bre Jones - Tenor guitar, vocals, percussion
Eva Koumi - Guitar
Bobby May - Guitar, vocals
Paul Macadam - Bass, keys, guitar, vocals
Georgia Street - Drums, percussion

All songs written and performed by Library Siesta

Created on the stolen lands of the Gadigal-Wangal people, the Noongar people, the Wattamattagal people, and the Dharawal people

Produced, engineered and mixed by Ryan K Brennan
Assistant Engineers: Chloe Dadd & Dom Corso
Mastered by Andrew Edgson at 301 Studios

Tracks 1-4, 6, 8, 10 & 11 recorded by Ryan K Brennan at Golden Retriever Studios
Tracks 7 & 9 recorded by Blain Cunneen at Rancom St Studios
Track 5 recorded at Bre’s home, by Bre
All vocals, environmental sounds and some additional guitars recorded at Bre’s home by Bre
Glockenspiel recorded at Georgia’s home, by Georgia

Artwork by Sasha Satz
Image © 2021 S. Satz
Graphic design by Ella Cutler

This album was made in crip time and produced through Accessible Arts’ Sound On initiative with the support of Create NSW

Released by Off The List Records

Special thanks to Bart Denaro, Mary, Sylvain Coantic, Alexandra Herson, Chris Eyre, Ryan Brennan, Blain Cunneen, Oliver Badman, Cameron Menegoni, Matt Wright, Yeevs, Fenn Is Cool, Luke Calarco and all of the Team Vom extended family, Jade Smith, Kellie Lloyd, Tim Steward, Harley Young & the Off The List crew, Liz Martin & the Accessible Arts team, Bre’s neighbours Jared, Aimee and Craig for putting up with our rehearsals and of course Jasmine, Aria, Carolyn, Mighty & Panda

Bre would also like to thank all the boys who did her wrong, without whom this album would not have been possible

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