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Silence
03:37
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Your front door is as innocuous as any other
You put your key in to unlock it and you wonder
Would it really be so bad
If next time you come out you were in a body bag
No one ever taught you how to pray
But oh, how you tried
When the monster moved in with you that day
You keep it all locked up so well
Not even the nosiest neighbours can tell
Muffle your screams with a fresh coat of paint
And they'll never make any noise complaints
You're not sure if memory serves you right
No, you can't trust it
Because your head’s been knocked around too many times
I know your tears are falling like bodies from a burning building
But if you want to stay alive you've gotta keep those bodies quiet
Keep those bodies quiet
Make sure they fall in total silence
Keep those bodies quiet
Make sure they fall in
silence
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Bourbon cokes and sweaty bongs
Smells like boys who did me wrong
Just a means to self-harm
A war as pointless as Vietnam
Cut down trees and count the rings
Count my scars, it's the same thing
Body's decayed, spirit's regressed
to a youth where I'm not depressed
Second teenagehood
Little crushes on girls and guys
Getting home at sunrise
Still don't know where I belong
Masturbate all day long
Second teenagehood
I don't look back
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Well, aren't you looking pretty
in your second-hand clothes
All dressed up in stories
that you'll never know
Isn't it a pity how you'll never be mine
I get that you love her
but can't you love me at the same time?
I wouldn't mind
My heart is a fortified city, but you still found your way in
And I don't know if I can put the people through this again
Because they're still broken
Oh yeah they're sore
from battles lost years before
It's alright
I wouldn't mind
Before you cut me loose
Hold me tight like a noose
Before you cut me loose
Hold me tight
I won't make a move
but you can if you want to
It's alright
I wouldn't mind
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4. |
Winnie Blues I
06:05
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We fucked on the bare bathtub floor
I was 16 and bored
and as I bled
he lit a cigarette
In a suburban backyard
They gave me bourbon after bourbon til I didn’t know which way was up
Then the boy I thought I loved
sold me to his friend
for a $10 pack of blues
From that night on something was missing
Something important that I lacked
The only way to get it was to keep going back
And one by one they each had their turn
I always cried but I never said no
because I’d given up on life a long time ago
Kevin said he’d get me a gun
but I never had enough cash
Because the boy I thought I loved
kept stealing it to buy cigarette packs
And now I think about the tar in his lungs
I think about the cells mutating
And I think about his face turning blue and how
everything turns out as it’s supposed to
as it’s supposed to
Yeah everything turns out
exactly as it’s supposed to
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5. |
Life Experience
02:07
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They say her eyes are a desert
Wandering, aimless
But when they fall on you
she lights up just like Vegas
Although you've promised your heart to another
All she wants to be is your insignificant other
Well, you've dug yourself into this tunnel vision
All you see is her with 20/20 precision
Is this fate, or an escape?
Is this fate? Is she your fate?
Is there space in your bed for a second lover?
Because all she wants to be is your insignificant other
They say her eyes are a desert
Wandering, aimless
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Rebecca lived in the house next to mine
I think about her every time
I get locked out of my bank account
"What's the street name of your first house?"
But I don't wanna look back
Because that cul-de-sac has secrets I just can't hack
We're all cans of beans
Past expiry, rotten and dusty
Forgotten in a pantry
If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully
Because I'm no good
Her daddy was never there
and her mum would pull her by the hair
Rebecca never knew what she did
Daily beatings for being a kid
“Humans are living longer thanks to modern medicine”
How come you say it like it's a good thing?
We're all cans of beans
Past expiry, rotten and dusty
Forgotten in a pantry
If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully
Because I'm no good for you
One time she got in trouble
when it should have been me
Too scared to fess up
I watched her get beaten up
But it was my fault
it was my fault
it was my fault
We're all cans of beans past expiry
If you find me, won't you please dispose of me thoughtfully
Because I'm no good for you
No, I'm no good for you
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ENFP
02:58
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All of my actions have the opposite effect of my intent
Everything I have ever said
it’s never quite been what I’ve meant
Doctor, can you do surgery on my personality?
I’m sick of being a pushover
ENFP
All messed up and nowhere to go
Reality is only a nightmare
Fall asleep all the time
to let my mind take me elsewhere
Doctor, can you do surgery on my personality?
I’m sick of being a pushover
ENFP
All messed up and nowhere to go
When I die my organs will be put in new bodies
I hope the people find them useful
more than they were for me
Doctor, can a heart still be transplanted
if it was always taken for granted?
All messed up and nowhere to go
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9. |
Winnie Blues II
02:58
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Ashley was the only one I told
Secrets too big for my hands to hold
about a boy who made me want to die
She was the one thing keeping me alive
He put me down, said girls can’t shred
Only thing they’re good for is giving head
I left that part of town long ago
But she stayed
Now he’s her Romeo
Does he still reek of Winnie Blues?
Does he hit on your friends in front of you?
Does he even know what you’re worth?
Do you even know what you’re worth?
Some teenage boys don’t know how to love
Dumb teenage boys don’t know how to fuck
Pixelated girls never say no
Did you shrink, Ashley or did he grow?
I kept it all inside
when he asked me
“Why do you always cry
afterwards?”
I kept it all inside
when they asked me
“Why do you always cry
afterwards?”
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Spark
03:08
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You call me darling
I call you creep
Women are not property
so I’m not yours to keep
I’ve got a box of matches
and you’ve got a nerve, boy
Watch me smile while I destroy
All that you love
It all starts with a spark
Yeah, I’d had one too many
No, that didn’t give you any
right to just do whatever you like
And now I’m too tired to fight
Yeah, I took it lying down
So I’ll give it lying down, cunt
Watch me burn
All that you love
It all starts with a spark
I know what I’m worth
but I’m tired of this earth
There’s too many guys like you
Time to say goodbye to
All that you love
It all starts with a spark
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11. |
Happily Ever After
02:37
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And she lived happily ever after
Checked the letterbox everyday
Bracing herself
for a no-grounds eviction notice
Practised the lotus position and counted her breaths
Did all the psychologist said
Handed over her credit card and counted her debts
And she lived happily ever after
Never talked to strangers
Kept right away from danger
Looked over her shoulder
There was no one behind her
Well, there was no one in front either
Nobody by her side
No one was ever by her side
And she lived happily ever after
And she lived happily ever after
And she lived
Happily
Happily
Happily
Happily…
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